(Excerpts from the book "The Mystique Of Enlightenment", which depicts the meeting of Ug Krishnamurti with Ramana Maharshi, shared below,
That man
was sitting there. From his very presence I felt "What! This man -- how
can he help me? This fellow who is reading comic strips, cutting
vegetables, playing with this, that or
the other -- how can this man help me? He can't help me." Anyway, I sat
there. Nothing
happened; I looked at him, and he looked at me.
"In his presence you feel
silent, your questions disappear, his look changes you" -- all that
remained a story, fancy stuff to me. I sat there. There were a lot of
questions inside, silly questions --
so, "The questions have not disappeared. I have been sitting here for
two hours, and the questions are still there. All right, let me ask him
some questions" -- because
at that time I very much wanted
moksha. This part of my background,
moksha, I
wanted. "You are supposed to be a liberated man" -- I didn't say that.
"Can you give me what you have?" -- I asked him this question, but that
man didn't answer, so after some lapse of time I repeated that question
-- "I am asking
'Whatever you have, can you give it to me?'" He said, "I can give you,
but can you
take it?" Boy! For the first time this fellow says
that he has something
and that I can't take it. Nobody before had said "I can give you," but
this man said "I can give you, but can you take it?" Then I said to
myself "If there
is any individual in this world who can take it, it is me, because I
have done so much
sadhana, seven years of
sadhana. He can think that I can't take it, but I can
take it. If I can't take it, who can take it?" - -- that was my frame of mind at the time -- you know, (
Laughs) I was so confident of myself.
I didn't stay with him, I didn't read any of his books, so I
asked him a few more questions: "Can one be free sometimes and not free
sometimes?" He said "Either
you are free, or you are not free at all." There was another question
which I don't remember. He answered in a very strange way: "There are no
steps leading you to
that." But I ignored all these things. These questions didn't matter to
me -- the answers didn't interest me at all.
But this question "Can you take it?" ... "How arrogant he is!" --
that was my feeling. "Why can't I take it, whatever it is? What is it
that he
has?" -- that was my question, a natural question. So, the question
formulated itself: "What is that state that all those people - - Buddha,
Jesus and the whole gang --
were in? Ramana is in that state -- supposed to be, I don't know -- but
that chap is like me, a human being. How is he different from me? What
others say or what he is saying is of
no importance to me; anybody can do what he is doing. What is there? He
can't be very much different from me. He was also born from parents. He
has his own particular ideas about
the whole business. Some people say something happened to him, but how
is he different from me? What is there:
What is that state?" --
that was my fundamental question,
the basic question -- that went on and on and on. "I must find out what
that state is. Nobody can give that state; I am on my own. I have to go
on this uncharted sea without a
compass, without a boat, with not even a raft to take me. I am going to
find out for myself what the state is in which that man is." I wanted
that very much, otherwise I
wouldn't have given my life.
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